To our baby’s mama...

If you’re familiar with Rachel Hollis, maybe you’ve heard of her “start today journal”. It’s a journal where you write down what you’re grateful for and 10 dreams you have as though they’ve already happened. 

Everyday I write down my biggest dream, “I am a mama”. But in order for that to happen, it means someone else has to choose to allow me to mother their child. 

It breaks my heart to think about it. How can I possibly ask this of another woman? 

I want our baby’s first mama, wherever she is, to know I pray for her every night (and morning, and afternoon). I love her already and we will welcome her with open arms into our family. We won’t discount the role she will continue to have in our little one’s life. 

Adoption is hard. There is pain, sadness, joy. I hope we can do a good job navigating the hard when our little one is here. One thing I know for sure, he/she will be so loved by so many, and so will his/her first mama. ❤️

Dear baby Flint

Dear baby Flint, 

I haven’t met you yet and I don’t know when I will, but I already love you so much! My love for you grows each day and sometimes my heart feels like it could burst waiting for you to come into our lives. Everyday I wait, I remind myself how worth it you will be. 

I don’t know what you will look like, what you’ll enjoy doing when you grow up, or even if you’ll be a boy or girl. But little one, I do know how loved you are now and how loved you will continue to be. You will be coming into a family that understands we’re not your only family, you will always have your first family, too. We are so happy you are going to have all of these people to love on you forever. 

I can’t wait for the days I get to take you on your first hike, vacation, and for the days I get to stay home and snuggle you. This waiting is hard, but one thing I know for certain, is you are 100% worth the wait. ❤️

xoxo, mom